Reflection
A fairy’s musings and pondering as another year ends
Tomorrow will be the beginning of December!
And how strange it is, that the year has flown by and yet, at the same time, held so many events and experiences. It has felt like every week was the start of a brand new life—when really it’s the same life but with new challenges and realizations and those pesky pixies called feelings.
Hehe.
This essay is a little reflection on the year in three parts: things to be grateful for, future plans, and comforting ideas to bring into the new year.
As you know I love similes and metaphor (guilty as charged, though I worry sometimes If it all makes sense), so this won’t be any different. If you’d like to make your own list, grab a pen and do it with meeee.
A Fairy Reflection Begins Now..
Unicorns
Lovely things to be grateful for!
I was reminded, just this morning, of the importance of gratitude. Which led to me thinking about all the lovely things that have occurred this year, and all the lovely things I have discovered. Things to be grateful for, things that brought pleasant surprises. Here are three of them. (The rest are tucked away in the privacy of my heart):
A studio to call my own: I have a studio! This is the first time I’ve ever had a personal studio/art space before. It’s so intriguing how cool it feels, ha! I plan on hosting teeny-tiny events there but mostly, I now have a place to run off to when home gets stressful. A place to try new things away from prying eyes! It’s still in the works: walls are being painted, furniture being picked out etc. But it’s like being a set designer and decorator for a movie. I LOVE THAT. For all those who have the gift of a studio or a little art space that’s theirs, do you feel the same way? Cool and majestic vibes hehe. Like a unicorn!
Fairytales Galore: I haven’t yet figured out the best way for people to find the imaginarium (Tumblr? Pinterest? 'tube?) but I’ve been writing SO MUCH for the past 2 years since beginning with Fairy Library (which is now complete) and slowly building Fairy Shop. And it’s kind of astonishing how much I’ve put out there, and how many more ideas are already bubbling in my mind. Building this imaginarium and publishing these fairytales has been a lesson on bravery. It’s also sooo intimate and like ahhhhhh: my heartfelt thoughts and values poured out into adventure and magic! I hope somebody loves it. But even if no one ever reads them, I’m so happy I made them. That I keep making them. That I go back and re-read them! I see each fairytale as a piece of my perspective, hopes, dreams and curiosity. I’m motivated to keep creating and keep building Fairy Way Galaxy! So stay tuned, my love.
Journaling and Moments of Reflection: I’ve been doing that more and more—putting down my words. Though I’ve been journaling since I could write sentences, my recent life seasons have been hard…hard enough hat I didn’t feel driven to the blank page. Instead I avoided it. And it made me form a habit of running away from my feelings instead of facing them. I’m slowly getting better at it! I hope I can find a deep journal bond soon (you know how there are some journals you just feel so close to? Mine was a few journals ago, I still visit her—it became such a safe space.) I’m grateful for this new desire for a safe space for my most internal musings; I think it’s a good sign!
Treasure Maps
New routes to find “treasure”!
Here are three steps I’m taking moving forward:
Making Fairy Tumblr blog more like me: I get anxious when it comes to sharing my thoughts in a space where people might actually listen. Lots and lots of ppl. I sometimes feel stuck. And I worry about how I will be perceived. But, I am on a mission to sound more like me on Tumblr and courageously introduce Fairyland and the imaginarium to more people. Instead of hiding behind cute ads and dissapeairng, I want to write about my magic world and share the fairytales and talk about the details! So that, eventually, magical girlies out there can find this space to be a second home! Cheers to stepping out and pressing the “post” button. (And turning off my wifi afterwards and pretending I’m chill. LOL.)
Sustainable Deadlines: I’m such an idea generator—I LOVE coming up with things—which makes it hard sometimes to juggle everything. There are moments were I get disappointed that I didn’t complete something fast enough or start something sooner. So, I want to give myself more sustainable deadlines that allow for satisfying completion without putting me under unnecessary pressure to do more or “work super fast”. I’m still figuring out what this looks like! Send me tips if you have any please.
Slow Healthy Habits: I think I’ve talked about building one healthy habit a month in a past essay. Well, I’ve found that I need a little extra nudge to even keep up with the bare minimum on a daily level. Especially when some days are so much more difficult than others. So, I want to improve on a healthy habit, slowly. Make it super easy at first before building it up. Instead of making it super intense and expecting insane outcomes.
Hot Chocolate
Comfort to take into 2026!
Hot chocolate is so comforting and yummy and delicious.
So are these three things:
Good Vibes TV: I want to watch more of my favorite cartoons, and fun tv shows and movies (new or old, no matter the genre), that bring joy, peace, and good vibes into my life. And make me smile! I’ve noticed that sometimes when I’m stressed, I start falling down a rabbit hole of random video consumption that’s distracting, but not healing or helpful. Usually feeds my anxiety. So, I want to create more intentionality around what I watch. Maybe even start a lovely “good vibes default watch list” to reference. It’s like how certain social media spaces drain your energy, but when you’re on Pinterest you feel alive. You know? Some things take away your will to live, and some things give you a warm hug. I want more warm hugs! Gotta protect my inner world <3
One activity per day: I have this hilarious habit of writing a to-do list for the day only to realize, by the end of the day, that each todo had like a million steps. Who am I trying to kid? As if I’m not a snail. Doing one task/acitivity each day has found a special place in my heart. It’s comforting to know that at the end of the day, something was done and it was done with a clear mind. Splitting my focus in one go creates a race against time that I tend to lose. Therefore, I proclaim that there will be many more days where my todo list will have just one thing on it. Even when that thing is as simple as “take a nap.”
A good book with a cup of tea: Enough said!
So, magical lady, What about you?
What are your Unicorns of the year (did they surprise you)? What do your Treasure Maps look like moving forward? And what’s that sip of tasty, comforting Hot Chocolate, that you are taking into the coming year, made of?
I hope your reflections bring out wonderful discoveries and give you something to look forward to already.
Lots of hugs and kisses,
Anastasia
